Concentration

So I've decided that from now on rather I'm in ballet or modern or jazz I have to have the best concentration possible no matter what, and always try to enhance my technique. I've also decided that I'm always going in the first group for things. My biggest thing I need to work on is picking up combinations quickly. I'm a natural at performing/presentation, I just need to work on the technique and details of things. At any rate, this starts tomorrow in Modern. I'm going to have the best concentration/focus, I am always going to be enhancing my technique and making it better as I'm working, and I'm also always going to go in the first group for things and force myself to always know the combinations. I am amazing at ballet, modern and jazz and I need to start acting like I know who I am instead of shying away from myself. I'm the best dancer they've got on their hands and I need to be proud of that. This is my first year dancing in a practicuum, Orchesis, I'm dancing in Christen Legg's piece for Winter Concert, and I'm of course going to be in at least 3 GP's. I need to remember who I am and know that "our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are more powerful beyound measure"-Nelson Mandela Inaugural Speech.

my counselor

So, today my counselor completely blew me. This is only my third time meeting with her, so I'm not completely comfortable with opening up to her about things yet. While i know that I'm most comfortable talking to my friends, they are not counselors ad I need to pray about being comfortable with opening up to my counselor. She just made me extremely uncomfortable today when she said that she thought I was uncomfortable talking to her b/c of our "cultural differences". I obviously grew up around all different kinds of people and its just natural for me to not pay attention to those kinds of things. The cultural difference of a person is almost always the last thing I notice about someone, because its never been important to me. From the time I was born until now I've always had so many different friends and people in my life that are different from me and its just natural. It made me really upset that she thought that because I'm African American that I'd have a problem talking to her. It makes me wonder what other kinds of assumptions she made about me after knowing absolutely nothing about me. So now I'm even more uncomfortable talking to her, and that really stinks. But whatever, I'm going to pray about it and move on, and do my best to open up to her, because I know I need to be talking to someone.

Abundance

So today I realized just how abundant I am, and how blessed and I am to have my life that way. When I ever need money or any kind of material thing, it is there for me. God is always working in my life to provide both the things I need and want, and for that I am thankful. I'm thankful for all of the wonderful gifts I'm giving to my little, for my check I've made out to Alvin Ailey for next summer, for my formal dress balance being paid off and my new shoes. I'm so blessed, highly favored and abundant and above all I'm grateful. I'm grateful that I am able to share my wealth with others, and still have so much. Today is a great day just to feel good and refreshened.

today was a great day

So today was amazing and i couldn't be happier. Today is proof that putting all of yourself and trust into God's hands, and truly believing in yourself does make your perfect life. I had good prayer last night and woke up just claming the victory over my day, and its been amazing. I had such a great Modern mid-term, and amazing feed back from Rhonda (my teacher). I also happened to get that feed back in front of Shari (my ballet teacher). They both congratulated me on a good class and it made me feel really good about my dancing. On my way out, I also got a compliment on my dancing from one of my colleagues which also made me feel really good about myself. I'm falling in love with the Dance Department and it couldn't be a more perfect fit for me. I'm also really excited about finishing my piece and it going into Noon Dance Showing. I'm excited about the feed back I'm getting from Jane and Sharie and whatever other teachers I get feed back from. I'm finishing my first full piece this and next month and I couldn't be more excited. My technique and ability to pick things up quickly just get better and better everyday. I'm excited about Sylvia's piece and Orchesis and I'm excited about performing in the Tutor Piece and Graduate Presentations and WDP, and my BFA. I have everything that I'm wanted since I was two years old and I'm so happy!

Believe

So today I realized this semester I haven't put my heart fully behind the things I've wanted. This summer I knew what I wanted, had faith in the things God was going to do with my life, and felt good and excited about everything. God was making things happen for me and I had such a strong belief in all of the wonderful things that he has in store for me. Yet, as soon as I started school, I let people with negative attitudes effect my thinking. I let myself become intimidated and I almost gave up. I need to remember that I am a child of God, and that anything/everything that I want out of life I already have. God is much bigger than my sorrority, than the Dance Department, than any audition I'll ever go to, than money, than everything. I have to remember that I am receiving all of the amazing things in my life right now. As long as I continue to keep God first in my life and have unwaivering faith, the things I want will appear and become the things I have. I know who I am and what I'm here for and I'm succeeding in every area of my life.